Retiring the Anxiety Suit

I’m in my living room, lying on the floor, speaking into a recorder. My body is full of emotion. I feel like everything is going WRONG. Everything feels slightly off. Vaguely threatening. Even the usual everyday events like getting my son to his activity, or getting dressed — it all feels very stressful and overwhelming.…Read more »

Fog Light

How will you FEEL when your future is revealed? Every moment has a radius of awareness. What you are aware of is what you feel and know in your current radius – like your range of vision in a thick fog. If, in your radius of awareness, you star in the leading role of Loser…Read more »

The Second Dart

Remember last week when I told you I’ve been practicing doing things that scare me? I’m coming to realize that what I’m really doing are things that EXCITE me! Maybe it started as the feeling of FEAR, but it EVOLVED into anticipation, and then excitement. This happened because as I began to EXPLORE my fears – the…Read more »

Finding Dinner Peace

Lately I’ve been doing things that SCARE me, every day. This might sound admirable, but really, it’s a drag. Creating your own reality is more about chipping away at the chronic, vaguely annoying decisions you make all the time that you can no longer see are hurting you in the long run. This isn’t the…Read more »

Fall to Rise

Last week I had a dream. I was in a lecture hall with a huge crowd of people. The venue was enormous, and packed full to the doors. The mood felt very excited, like this was a super big deal, although I can’t remember why now. I was in the front row with a bunch…Read more »